called her yesterday.. wanted to know how was she doing.. but I uncontrollably told her bits of what I had intended to tell her later when she is not so busy and has some time to spare.. signs of desperation? I dunno.. tried hard to resist, dun wanna her to feel stress.. but I find myself unable to do it. she said after 20th may.. I guess i have to hold out on myself till then. what’s keeping me alive up till now? I guess it is my love for her.